Hi everyone. I want to write this article to clear some
things out, to say maybe what I couldn’t say when I was too upset of Skull
accusing me for the second time, when he failed for the first time back in 2007
I guess, to prove that I was cheating.

First, I want to apologize for my rude words, yet I have
reasons behind that. When I was accused in 2007, it was because of a FW in which
Skull suspected me of cheating. I was accused of the most serious crime for a
gamer and when the investigation was concluded and I wasn’t found guilty for
anything, Skull never even had the respect of saying “Sorry man, it was my bad.
Cheers”. I remember MR Seebz even backed
me up on that one and sent me a nice PM which I really loved. Thanks for that
once again Seebz.

Skull is an important member in the community, yet he doesn’t
show respect to “noobs”. Respect is equal for anyone. Even when a 1 day quake
player asks me questions or says “GG” to me, I very respectfully say “Thank you”
to him and even give him some tips, even though I am light years away from him
with my skill. Yet those elite players out there are always so silent and
obnoxious.

My daily life is work and
a little fun in the night before going to bed, of quake. My quake 3 folder wasn’t changed since I have
this game, 4 or maybe 5 years ago. Only PB updates and various packs (map packs
and so forth. I have PB on in my game and I play on PB servers most of the times.
I connected to the server where Skull and others were having a CW or FW and I
stayed there for 30 seconds or more and then I got kicked. I thought Skull
kicked me, as things haven’t been fine between us since the beginning. I didn’t
want to cause trouble so I moved on to Beer. As far as I know, Beer has PB on,
so I didn’t get kicked.

I am a PB noob and I don’t know anything about it. I had to
spend a few hours to make a few binds, like the [U] [FAIL] one for instance. I
was never curious in cheating as it’s lying to yourself and living in lies. I
have some scars in life regarding this and that is why I am always frank about
anything. Do you remember when I used to spam the console? I respectfully asked
Beast and Mona and others to mute me, as I knew I was guilty and making
everyone annoyed. I wouldn’t even be upset if they would’ve kicked me, as I was
annoying and I would’ve kicked myself too.

The reason why I reacted so aggressively in my post is
because once again, I was accused by the same guy that accused me 3 years ago when
he didn’t prove anything. Better yet, he didn’t even send me a PM or post to
say “I am sorry”. Skull, you are a frank guy as far as I know and you’re also a
down-to-earth person. Please be man enough to at least admit these words now,
after so much time. I am telling you this as most people in E+ just love to lie
or not take the full blame for their actions.

I know that many people here don’t like me, yet there are
also some that like me and even supported me and implemented some of my jokes
and binds into their signature. For instance Ultra, Bazz and others. I want to thank everyone for supporting me,
like SP, FPS, Khazaar, blackkitty, Trans-AM, Epsilon, Fuerza, WAR, Bleeding, Hazard, Hyper Dragon, AlienM and many others. I don’t
want anyone to say “hey cheaters support cheaters” as I am not talking about
dirty support based on lies. It’s the human feeling of being empathic with
someone you whole heartedly believe has not done any wrong. This is something
that you rarely find.

And what is disappointing to me and scary is that everyone
believes and is guided by a one man here, that knows more about cheaters than
any member of E+: Skull. Skull, I said in a few posts that I really respect
your work and even though we had our differences, I still consider you a good
member of this whole community. Yet you are too cold even with noobs like me,
as you consider me to be. This is not how a leader should be, as you have somewhat
of a leader flare here. Please don’t understand that I am trying to be an ass licker
and raise you up to the Heavens for personal benefits. I never do that with
anyone in life, real life. What’s yours, I respect and don’t ass lick anyone.

It’s really degrading to me that this so called “investigation”
was wrapped up in a short while, I got banned and didn’t even get the chance to
post proper response to these accusations. Yes, I had the chance, yet don’t overlook
why I reacted this way. How would you feel to have your reputation dented by
someone that treats you like garbage, accuses you of the most horrific crime
for a gamer, then he leaves you like a rotten apple to decay? This is the way
you treated me Skull back in 2007 and that’s why I responded this way. And I am
little to completely understanding with guys like Madbringer for whom, the
forum might be a joy in his maybe monotonous life and he dares mimicking others’ opinions about
things he doesn’t completely grasp, like the hasty concluded investigation of
Skull which lead to my ban. Please realize that I am not trying to trash you
nor insult you or anyone in any manner. My post has a peaceful and diplomatic
vibe that I want you all to be aware of while reading.

I want to thank WAR for supporting me with his few, but
important words for me and for the fact that he accepted to give my CFG to
Fala, from whom I didn’t hear anything. We never quite had the opportunity to
talk much, yet he was the only one I could turn to for some help, if he agreed
to help me out. I had a chat with him today and he was convinced that I
cheated. I am sorry to hear that, I wish I knew more about PB and programming,
yet I am only a content writer, so what I am good at is writing only. Thank you
man for at least taking the time to talk to me.

I was kicked by Hyper Larry out of the clan for my bad
language, and I didn’t even get to be messaged about this. I ask you now Larry:
If you are so much for keeping Hyper’s reputation up high and want to act so
professional and wise regarding my rowdy and insulting vocabulary, why didn’t
you have the comradely respect to give me a PM about it? We played together in
FWs and CWs and I think that it would’ve been honorable for you as a leader to
do that. In a way, we sat at the same table together and we shared moments that
I respect and cherish a lot. It is sad that even after I PM-ed you in MSN, you
didn’t leave any feedback and I haven’t even seen you online since then. This
is not how a leader should be. A leader works for the benefit of the many, he
doesn’t find the highest place to laugh, enslave and work people from for his
pleasure and personal gain.

To complete the circle, I want to say that this community
meant a lot to me, even though I was always watching the show from behind the blinds. I am not quitting nor anything,
yet I am sad that I am the one to be forcefully kneeled by this injustice. I
want to remind you and I would appreciate greatly if only with a word, Beast
could hold me up on this one: When I would chat spam in BEER, I asked him to
mute me and was never upset about it. This says a lot to me personally, yet it
has no valor if it doesn’t say the same things to the crowd. I am a frank guy
and I respect people of the same kind.

In the end, I want to say that you really got me on the
wrong foot Skull and you and many others had your chance to ban and get rid of
me, throwing my reputation into a pool of disgrace. Talking from my end to yours,
me, the noob and kid and spammer so many
think I am: How would you feel if you’d know you didn’t do wrong, yet everyone’s
saying otherwise just because someone that knows more than you do, convinced
the crowd? It’s this feeling of powerlessness that I get and I only hope that,
somewhere deep inside of you, you feel sorry for this, even though you would
never tell it to anyone, not even to your own conscience.

Thanks to those taking the time to
read,

ionut