Welcome Beata!

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Talk about yourself. You haven't got it because you have a mirror. You try finding who has right but when u see in ur mirror u find yourself. so you think you have always right.
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Most ppl are very very selfish, and I'm saying a fact. One person can't change ppl, they have to change themselves if they really want.

yes, im proud of having a mirror in my bathroom, even over 8 on the whole house if not more.

just take a look to which position this mirror brought me, Skill, Influence, knowing people.

I cant really complain about that, can i? I have the influence people like you want ali, I have the railskill that any clan can take me if its just about skill, I have so much that you dont and you want to have.

but most of all, I have something called "self reflection".

its pretty modern nowadays, whenever you do something, you do a "self reflection" afterwards, objective, not subjective, just to see where you can improve and where your mistakes are.

so what i really suggest you is to do a "self reflection" yourself.

I just finished watching full metal alchimist yesterday, this anime is all about the Equivalent Exchange concept. In order to gain something you need to loose something of equal value.

In the end, the hero's found out, that eventhough you mostly know what you lost, you dont know what you exactly gained.

For you, Ali, everything is math based, you set up something and you think you will recive something specific in the end.

However, Humans are not math based, and you will not gain ever anything you specifically want, except if you trade so you know the result before you give something.

In case of banana clan you probably recived people who help you, people who greet you if you go on the server and people you can talk to if there is anything bothering you.

Unluckly for the community, you obviously have enough people you can talk to in real life, otherwise you would have recognised earlier.

I highly recommend you some "self reflection".

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That's the total inverse. I need ppl to talk to urgently. You can't know how lonely I am. (we are friends) without prooving it, isn't satisfying me.
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You still don't know me. And stop trying to.

so you expect them to be friendly to you, talk to you and they have to play on your servers? you should recognize thats not possible.

I seen enough of your surface to think its not worth investigating into all behind it.

BTW, the main difference between us is that I like the loneliness and I'm fine with it. 

Why u post quake live things here? xD

Cuz aNk C: